Hat tip: Just Me
This is from an entry on Nicky’s public FB page. I don’t use the browser he does, so whether it’s a bookmark bar, or some browser tabs for pages he’s opened, I can’t say. Still, this one is right up there with the screenshot he once so proudly posted in which the “web search” field clearly displayed the term “bondage sleepsack.” ETT’s site has a rather long blog entry regarding sleepsacks and other kinky stuff, with examples from his writing, here. That entry’s worth a read if you haven’t seen it. Fair warning: put down all beverages, first, if you decide to read it.
Sleepsack Sally, the King of Kink, has done it again. Duuuude!
I assume he has the DMCA Copyright Notice thing up there because it’s his favorite method of attempting to eliminate those he considers his rivals. It’s the ones to the right that made me gigglesnort.
The infamous bondage sleepsack screengrab?
Přihlášeni is “login” in Czech. One of his most visited pages is logging into a Czech bondage & fetish porn site. He’s PAYING for Czech bondage porn online! I am laughing so hard right now it’s hurting my sides! No wonder he’s always broke. He’s paying for online bondage & fetish porn! Hahahahahaha!
We suspected that a while ago. Well, at least it’s not Japanese furry fetish porn, right?
Well, the screencap doesn’t show the entire bookmark bar. So you never know.
Okay, that’s it, I’ve exceeded my EEEEEWWW quotient for today.
Thank you. Was scratching my head trying to figure out what that was. No wonder he does’t have any money LOL.
And a few days ago on Twitter he posted this – https://twitter.com/nickwashere1976/status/673856967232856064 – and tried to play it off as a “joke” about somebody having to watch one of his creationist rivals… when obviously it’s porn to him.
I think his attraction to hoodies is related to it, too, on some level.
I wonder how long it’ll be before he has a Gofundme page up to help pay for his Czech cocoon-porn bills.
wondering how long before he starts claiming his ‘cousin’ is into that. We all know he isn’t off his computer long enough for his cousin to mess with his bookmarks.
The idea that Mike linked to bondage porn, then Nickolaus came back to innocently screen cap a word processor demo, would be hard to accept. To do that, one would have to bend over backwards and touch their head to the floor. Those, like the “bondage sleepsack” link caught on the Baxter payment screen cap 21 Nov 2007, are Nick’s links and nobody else’s.
I don’t know what’s more breathtaking, his stupidity at actually paying for porn when there is surely a gazillion free sites, or his audacity of wasting money on it and then begging the internet to pay his bills because he’s broke. His whole sleep sack fetish is enough to make anyone gag. He’s like some bloated spider that wants to tightly bind his victims in silk so he can feed on them without resistance.
On a lighter note, here’s Nicky expressing unintentionally hilarious concern in the comments section of his bookpatch page.
“You’re one of my created beings from 2006. I find it very unnerving that one of my characters showed up to bully me”
I suspect the sleep-sack fetish is a function of his underlying mental disorder, which I believe to be fetal alcohol syndrome or something very similar. I’ve seen people with Asperger’s derive comfort from being constricted by similar things, and the same phenomenon is sometimes found in FASD folks. Some of the other symptoms of FASD are: slow learning, short attention span, hyperactivity, or memory problems; learning disabilities, especially with reading, comprehension, and abstract math; delays or lack of abilities in speech and language: for example, receptive language disorder, interrupting, talking out of context, or chatting with no content; lack of executive function skills, including difficulties with organization, planning, and reasoning; inability to manage money, for example by saving and budgeting; and inability to understand cause and effect. Sound like anyone we know?
Actually, that sounds like Chris-Chan as much as Nicky. The main differences between the two are that Chris’s rage comes and goes in short bursts, instead of being a full-time personality trait, and although Chris is far more childlike and doesn’t even pretend to have a job/career, his IQ is probably a few points higher than Nicky’s. He did manage to get a college degree in computer design or something like that. Chris says he has Asperger’s, but his mother evidently used to be a really heavy drinker. Only go down the Chris-Chan rabbit hole at your own risk.
Nicky also seems to have a pretty bad case of Narcissistic Personality Disorder as well, which may account for his rages and many of his behaviors.
That would be a probable Axis II diagnosis, I think, and would be a reasonable consequence of the reactions of his family and peers to his challenges from the Axis I disorder, whether FASD or something similar. The organic impairment caused atypical behaviors, which others reacted to harshly. Personality disorders tend to result from traumas or abuse. Little Nicky was a difficult child to his family and a weird kid to his peers due to the underlying Axis I disorder, which would be likely to prompt bullying and abuse, hence the resulting Axis II disorder. I know it’s hard to feel sorry for him, but he doesn’t have a lot of control over his behaviors and has no insight at all as to why we react to him the way we do. He should be at least in a group home, if not an institution. There’s honestly not much that can be done for him beyond protecting him, and society, from himself. He’s not capable of benefiting from psychological therapy, and I know of no medical intervention that could reverse the brain damage underlying his pathology. He truly is more to be pitied than censured. His family, on the other hand, should take some responsibility for his actions. Were I to feel I were pushed to the point I had to act, it would be to force them by legal action to do for him what should have been done years ago, to protect his victims from further abuse.
He seemed to have some self-awareness eleven or twelve years ago:
NAP 4 May 2004: “My parents had no idea how mental illness fell into the family. They were guessing it has to be the biological father — that is what scares me because of the fact I don’t know when Mr. Hyde would come out again. That is how I describe it because I can be mild-mannered then turn into the monster the next.”
Beginning about 2007, it seems, Mr. Hyde moved in to stay and evicted Dr. Jekyll.
Also, compare that paragraph from 2004 with anything he has written recently. The throttle stuck, the brakes wore out, that train went runaway, and all we can do wave red flags to warn the unwary about the Mr. Hyde Express.
I’d agree with you there. And wherever he was put, I’d hope it would be a place where he can’t have internet access and all phone calls would be supervised.
“He’s like some bloated spider that wants to tightly bind his victims in silk so he can feed on them without resistance. ”
That’s the best description of anything I’ve read in a long time! And it’s accurate. How else is this guy going to have any kind of relationship, sexual or otherwise, with anyone unless they’re trapped and have no other options? It’s the most logical sexual fantasy available to somebody in his circumstances. Other than necrophilia…
And it’s perfect for jolly un-saint Nickolaus’s puritanical “no sex!” mindset, because while somebody’s bound in a sack, they’re pretty much neutered — their sex organs can’t be accessed. It turns them into a safe object, so they’re just this smooth cocoon that can be kept trapped on a couch while he reads “Leviathan’s Ghost” to them over and over again, poking them with a pointy stick until they say “That sounds like Lovecraft!”
I re-watched King of Comedy not long ago, and it’s way too easy to picture Nicky enacting Rupert Pupkin-like scenarios out in his basement. I bet when he’s not threatening women and their children online, he’s standing amidst cardboard cut-outs of Rod Serling and H. P. Lovecraft, giving acceptance speeches for imaginary Bram Stoker awards…
And like SirOtter said, “His rage arises from our ‘failure’ to share his fantasy with him.” That’s exactly it, Nicky to a T. Everybody else is in his way of his dream. One thing Nicky says a lot is “Why can’t you just let me enjoy being published?” and “You’re trying to make me be un-published!” If someone’s actually been published, you can’t make them “un-published.” Not without a time machine! But if somebody hasn’t really been published, you can spoil their fantasy for them… and that’s what he’s so mad at everybody for. He’s a kid having fun in his “spaceship” until some other kid comes along and says, “Why are you sitting in a cardboard box you wrote ‘NASA’ on?” He’s mad and yelling, “Why won’t everybody just let me be an astronaut?” Or a “journalist,” or a “CreateSpace employee,” or one of Brian Keene’s or Mary SanGiovanni’s peers, or a cowboy or a viking or whatever else he’s pretending. He wants to be a lot of things he doesn’t have the skills to be, and he’s angry that people won’t just play along with his delusion. If you’re in his way of that delusion, he’s gonna flail at you.
Now he’s picking safer and safer fantasies. His newest one seems to be “I have a big fanbase in the United Arab Emirates.” Well, there ya go…
He’s gone there, too. He went through a phase in which he’d tell anyone whose name came up on his mental rolodex to “go fuck your dead (family member),” or “go fuck your dead (family member’s) ashes.” That covers both necrophilia and incest in a single fantasy. It makes no difference to him whether the relative referenced is deceased or alive, or the same or opposite gender. It’s unclear whether he really thinks women have penises; he does seem to believe they can aim their stream of pee while standing. Given the added homosexual angle in some instances, we have a trifecta.
He thinks it’s funny to say things like that, but the fact that these thoughts/fantasies repeatedly enter his mind shows how truly warped he is. Whether he’s looking for approval from his “friends” when he says these things, I can’t say, but it is pretty clear he fanasizes himself at least being there to watch, if not film it. So, add voyeurism to the list …
True, I forgot about the “fuck your dead mother” thing (or maybe just blocked it out of my mind). That’s one of his go-to lines.
There was a crazy Chicago guy, Henry Darger – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henry_Darger – who shared some of Nicky’s traits of constant weird writing and isolation (although from all accounts he was a nice-enough guy), and he used to write epic (like 15,000 page) novels about little girls fighting a rebellion in a slave society… and he drew little girls with penises for some reason. I wonder if Nicky shares some of the same mania…
If a psychiatrist ever gets ahold of Nicky, I’d love to read his notes. His psyche’s tangled like a bale of fishing line.
Well, for years he was pretty well convinced I had male plumbing…which begs the question: what kind of women has he been with anyway? Maybe that’s the reason he broke it off with Melany? He couldn’t find the “other” equipment?
His favorite comments for me lately involve calling me a trans guy (F2M). I’m not sure if it’s supposed to be an insult or wishful thinking.
Of course, the thing Nicky will never grasp is it’s not the porn that makes it really funny. It’s the hypocrisy. Consider a Venn diagram with five main sets: angry people, idiots, scumbags, people who like porn, and people who protest loudly that they hate porn. He’s located right in the sweet spot where they all intersect.
Just don’t ask me to draw the bloody thing right now. I’ll probably make a mess of it and it’ll look all cluttered.
And what can we tell from that diagram?
He gets up everybody’s ring.
I’m also available for children’s parties. Remember to call your waitress and tip your mother.
“The night after the first Gothicfest, he claimed a worker at the motel he stayed at recognized him, and came upstairs to take a picture of him.”
That blog post was enlightening. Nicky is not only a maniac but also one of the worst compulsive liars I’ve ever come across. His delusions of grandeur and the way he blithely mentions the most outlandish personal stories as truth when they are so obviously lies is just staggering.
Lying is a way of life for Nicky. I doubt he’s even aware of how ludicrous half the things he says sound to other people anymore. Some random employee of a flea pit motel recognized an unknown basement dwelling hack writer who looks like a hobo? Not only recognized him, but was so star struck he went up to Nicky’s room to get a photograph of him?
As laughable as this is though, it pales in comparison to this one from an old blog post.
“I wasn’t acting like a rock star to get a backstage pass when I was at Cradle of Filth, someone recognized me and shouted “House of Spiders” and slapped the pass on me.”
On this occasion, not only does Nicky expect us to believe that he is famous enough for “someone” with sufficient authority to recognize him and let him backstage at a concert of a big international touring band, but that said “someone” knew his work well enough to identify a specific story from the Pacione canon. That Nicky would be recognized and let in on this basis is so far beyond laughable it needs a new word to describe the level of hubris and delusion. Stephen King himself would no doubt go unrecognized at a metal concert, let alone Little Nicky Nobody.
He’s not lying, he’s simply wildly inaccurate. He truly believes what he says. He’s not able to differentiate reality from fantasy. His rage arises from our ‘failure’ to share his fantasy with him. He doesn’t get why we don’t go along with his world view, and it infuriates him. He lashes out, we react, and the cycle continues. Or we ignore him, and something stimulates his memories of past battles years later. He picks them up where he left off because he has no concept of passage of time. This is all organic, and there really is nothing he can do about it.
Hmm. Not sure I entierly agree. I think you’re partially right, he definitely seems to confuse fantasy and reality on a regular basis but he also clearly knows the difference sometimes. His claim to have been working for CreateSpace before they fired him is a good example of a blatant lie. A few months back on twitter Nicky was called out on this. When pressured to confirm that he was in fact employed by CreateSpace he sheepishly claimed he was “only joking.”
Now of course he’s back to claiming they did fire him. This may be another example of fantasy/reality confusion but given how recent his inital claim was, I don’t think so. It’s more likely that he feels safe enough to start lying about it again given the previous lack of repercussions. This example shows an awareness of his mendacity when it threatens to result in real world consequences for him.
Agreed. Just like how he claims how he did this or that in college and is “college-educated”…yet acknowledges he only took 3 classes at a community college. Yet he claims to have double majored, including in journalism- which he knows he never took. He does a whole lot of lying….intentionally.
Yes. I think there’s a clear line between his fantasy/reality confusion and his blatant lies. He often gets into petty online arguments where the other person soon quits when they realize it’s like talking to a wall. Or simply because they have better things to do with their time. But Nicky usually interprets these “victories” as having far more significance than they actually do. From his perspective, over time I think these kind of “wins” morph into defining moments of not just his life but the lives of those involved and wider society.
This is probably a combination of Nicky having a tiny little mind and living a tiny little house bound life where the smallest incidents seem like big events.
His perception of “taking on lulu” and getting his books back is a good example. In his mind it was some huge David vs Goliath fight but from lulu’s perspective Nicky was just some annoying idiot to be gotten rid of as quickly as possible. Giving him what he wanted was no skin off their nose whatsoever. In these cases it’s easy to see how Nicky could grossly misinterpret events to cast him as victim/victor.
But there’s no way he can misinterpret something major that never actually happened. He’s a dumb asshole with mental problems, not a full blown schizophrenic. He flunked out of one semester in community college which he stretches into “I’m college educated” but he knows this is bullshit as he’s openly admitted to failing basic Navy training because he “couldn’t retain information.” Studying at tertiary level is far beyond his intellectual ability.
He just likes to lie about having a college education because he thinks it gives him more credibility as a writer. It also makes him feel superior to real writers such as Brian Keene and other “enemies” who didn’t go to college.
This is an individual who doubled down on claiming he got a blurb from Joe Lansdale after Joe publicly denied ever having offer him one.
And the actual response to his fan e-mail to Joe Bob Briggs did not match his re-telling either. Briggs did not mention Pacione’s attachment “Library of Bones”. That did not stop Pacione from repeating that Briggs liked the story. There is no indication Briggs read it.
You can break the cycle, at least for a short time. I cut him off on ALL social media–Twitter, FB, WordPress, everything. That’s not to say he doesn’t try to get my attention from time to time, but I don’t respond to him directly. I may talk to others about the incident, but not him. It cuts off his “feedback” and he grows weary of screaming into a void and moved on to someone who will give him feedback. Not saying it’s a perfect system, but it has gotten me loose of him for long swaths of time.
Coming from someone who has worked for Cradle of Filth on a few occasions, I can tell you with 100 percent certainty that this would never have happened. They don’t like to hang out with ANY fans, let alone someone like Nicky, and have very strict backstage access policies, to the point of not simply posting a security member near the green room access, but putting padlocks on the green room doors when they hit the stage. Allowing someone like Nick into their private areas will definitely, absolutely never happen.
Exactly. Thanks for clarifying. This is why I think it’s a clear case of Nicky’s compulsive lying rather than just a laughably inaccurate version of events. If he’d somehow snuck backstage for two minutes and managed to babble something to Dani about House of Spiders before being thrown out by security, it’s easy to see how Nicky could interpret an incident like that as something far more grandiose and meaningful than it actually was. Especially if Dani or some other band member had clocked him for a nut and humored him until he was ejected.
But for Nicky to say that he was recognized at the gate as the writer of some pathetic free-to-read-online-because-no one-will-buy-it story and given a backstage pass on this basis is just blatant lying. Yes, it’s also a fantasy in that this is what Nicky wishes would have happened, but I don’t think for a moment he really believes this is what actually DID happen.
A huge red flag about this alleged incident is Nicky’s colossal ego and narcissism. If he really had been recognized and given a pass because of a story he wrote we’d still be hearing about it today. Nicky would brag about it for the rest of his life. But it was just something that he mentioned in passing on his blog and never spoke of again. Making outrageous claims one minute and forgetting all about them the next is a classic indication of compulsive lying.
I’ve known a few compulsive liars in my time, and the chronic ones like Nicky who lie all the time about everything reach a point where they no longer realize how absurd their stories sound. They can casually say the most ridiculous and impossible things and think nothing of it. Yet if you ask them about it the next day they’ll often look at you blankly and say they don’t know what you’re talking about. The irony is that this is probably the truth as they genuinely may not remember what they said.
If he’d been given a pass he’d still have it among his prized possessions and would be wearing it every day like his new hoodie.
Yep.
I’ve had experience dealing with pathological liars–i.e., liars who start out *knowing* it’s a lie or stretch of the truth, but over time and repetition come to believe it. I’ve always suspected that about our Nicky. It’s pretty scary shit, too. PLs can convince themselves of almost anything.
Absolutely. And that’s another classic symptom of narcissism – pathological lying.
Does the link to a Czech login to a BDSM fetish site explain his recent interest in bitcoin?
Another gem from the comedy gold mine that is Nicky P (right at the bottom of his Don’t Fuck With What’s Mine wordpress uber rant):
“I can protect writers better than VampireFreaks.com as they are published it will be hard to plagiarize them and given name policy or sounds like a given name.”
I’m just surprised he was searching for something with the word “breasts” in it, given his fascination with gay male tendencies.
Maybe he couldn’t spell moobs.
maybe he thinks that all men have breasts just like he thinks women have penises. He does have moobs of his own, and he believes himself to be not just normal but a superb specimen of manhood after all.
…and the quotes just keep coming. This from Nicky’s FB page today:
“That was when the idea dawned on me when I am willing to train Goodwill employees how to become publishers with either TheBookPatch or IngramSpark.”
And here’s another:
“Janice Frank, the plagiarist who stole my novel — she claimed when she was alive, “Robert Baupader is on roster as one of my authors.” Fuck her damned memory there if she is willing to encourage plagiarism beyond the grave.”
He throws yer name out now and then just to see if he can get any attention. I fart in his general direction and carry on.